Hello! I sure hope Tuesday is treating you well! As I write this, I am sitting at my desk in my empty classroom, watching the sun stream in through my floor-to ceiling windows. The maintenance guy is mowing the lawn right outside my room, and it smells like summer. The dean just stopped by to check in and wish me a happy birthday. She commented on how beautiful my room is (because it really is soooo nice!) and how it must feel great to be living the dream.
She is right. I am living my dream. I live in a beautiful place with my favorite person, I am close to my family, I have a job that fulfills me and challenges me and I am happy, healthy and another year older! This years birthday looks vastly different than the last. Last year, I was filled with excitement and anxiety about my upcoming graduation, I was surrounded by close friends, I spent the majority of the day lying in the sun and finished it off with some college appropriate celebrations 😉 I was filled with all sorts of emotions. My life two weeks out was a black hole. I had no idea what was going to happen. It was exciting, but also nerve-wracking. And there was a lot of sadness around this point as well. It was hard to imagine being apart from my friends and the place I had called home for the past four years.
This year, I feel more calm. My future is not so mysterious. I have work and then get to spend the day with the one I love most. My life right now feels settled, and I like it very much. That being said, I look forward to lots of adventure in this next year. Like getting married, traveling to Sri Lanka, lots of hiking and camping and of course, a puppy. I love travel and Derek and I try to make it a regular part of our lives.
This year has also brought a sense of internal peace. I used to be so scared that I was missing out on things, or that I wasn’t making the right choices. The world just seemed so big and I felt like I had to be sure of what I was doing. Over this past year of crazy change, most of those FOMO feelings have dissipated. With all of the social media these days, I had to stop comparing. It’s useless! I had to tell myself this is where I am right now. Nothing is set in stone. Doing what makes me happy is exactly what I should be doing and there is no use putting any extra pressure on myself. It is wonderful to enter this next year of my life with such a calm mind.
I feel so grateful for all of the people in my life who have been there to support me, love on me and who have chosen me to be a part of their own lives. There is really nothing more important to me than these relationships.
Finally, thank you to all my wonderful internet friends. This little blog started as one of those “why not?” moments and has become something I love.
Here is to another wonderful year!